Various elements to my pulling

I (Amanda) found that I pull(ed) for the following reasons/triggers.

1)    GENETIC - because I have a trich disorder, it puts this idea in my head to pull out
my hair. (I can resist this with a lot of self discipline)

2)    CHEMICAL - chemical imbalance - wrong foods cause incredible urges, which I
basically find     impossible to resist (thoughts of the kinky hair, the roots etc).
This trigger is the worst, worst,     worst for me, and the most difficult to control.
That is why I love the JK diet so much (did _I_  say that?), not because it is easy,
but it gave me back my life - it gave me a fighting chance     against trich.

3)    SENSES (touch) - touching and isolating a specific hair.... course, kinky etc. Once I
isolated a specific hair, it is very, very difficult to stop there. I have been able
to remove this trigger by not allowing myself to touch my hair (on my head) - where
this part of the problem is.

4)    SENSES (visual) - seeing grey hair in a mirror. Once I see it, it chases me around the whole     day - I cannot stop thinking about it. I 'eliminated' this trigger by standing very far from mirrors     and in fact not allowing myself to go into a specific bathroom in our house, because the light is perfect there
to see grey hairs. This visual problem is big with my pubic pulling. I don't pull there for the touch-sensation... it is about what I see... ingrown hair, small dots under the skin, bumps where the hair starts growing out etc. I haven't been able to eliminate that trigger     yet... unfortunately I have to go there, you know (grin). This is also the problem with my leg hair.

5)    HABIT - I don't believe trich is a habit at all, but after doing the same thing over and over for many years, there is definitely a habit element to it. I found this the easiest part to break - even though it wasn't easy at all.

6)    EMOTIONS - stress/pain/self hate etc. I sometime think of pulling in
such times but it isn't like an urge or something I cannot control. I think the help
came from the emotional healing I received in the last 2 years, and the breaking of
the vicious circle once I realised I wasn't alone or crazy. You know... you pull, you
hate yourself, worry about tomorrow (fixing the hair), no one would like me anyway, I
am worthless, I may just as well pull, so you pull, and you hate yourself etc... I
actually find myself now days going through tremendous stress and pressure and not
even thinking about my hair.

7)     THE ITCH - nothing has been able to stop my head from
itching yet. Previously I used to pull,     thinking (unconsciously) that the pulling
would stop the itching. (It doesn't, don't fall for that     one!). Now I know that it
won't stop the pulling, so even though my head itch... I'll scratch, but I won't pull.

I just need to stress again that I can resist every single one of the above triggers.
The only one that is not really possible for me to resist, is the chemical one... the
one caused by the wrong foods. Now days, if I do get urges (after bad foods), I don't
easily pull, but it is hell fighting it. With the diet I don't need to go through that
hell moment after moment.

Oh, and the visual one is still a bit of a problem... (no binges or things like that),
but I'm still trying to figure out a clever way to change the situation/triggers etc.

Hope this helps someone.